hmm you know what bothers me? When people just don't talk to you. Like you know something is bothering them or going on and they just won't talk to you. You know what else kinda peeves me....when people say long story and then they don't share the story. Hmmm whatever if they don't wanna talk to you and share then I guess theres nothing you can do. Well I'm going to do stuff on the computer, just stuff maybe read. I only ate once today and that was early in the day. I probably won't eat again and who knows if I'll get up tomorrow to get something to eat. Friday I'm defenitely shutting off my hawk dollars. You know my mom wants me to be here Monday so she can help me move, well you know what fuck that I'm coming here for monday and having to stay all the way to thursday because of that. Theres nothing to do here I have no food here because by then by hawk dollars will be shut off and I will be seriously all alone. So I've decided that since no one can find any time to help me I'm going to help me. I'm moving my own damn self out. Fuck everyone else. You know what I'm real sick of people right about now, real sick of them. So I dunno either tomorrow but probably not cuz I'll be packing the bulk of my clothes and washing clothes, okay so on Friday I'll be packing up the car before I go home for the weekend. I'll move the damn refrigerator myself and the stupid heavy green bin. You know what I seriously doubt I will ever be going to Brian's house to stay like I have been, my mom seems real pissed off about it cuz I said I was "going home for the weekend" and she said "don't say that cuz you don't come home, you're going to jersey". I have a feeling she's going to put a stop to it or try. If she tries to put big rules on me and says I can't stay over anyone's house then I'm going to seriously go crazy. I doubt I'll be able to live two months in that house again. She's probably drive me so goddamn nuts that I'll run away or something. Maybe I'll just take my 500$ and leave, go somewhere and try to make it so that I don't have to come back. Do like Buffy did and go to LA and make up a new identity and work and avoid all the shit from back home. I'm just so sick and tired of everyone, of her of my family and I'm sorry to say that somehow I'm kinda tired of...you know what nevermind. It's not even worth it, you wanna know why? Because no one gives a shit about what I want? Especially my mom. Why would she not care when I said I didn't wanna come back here on monday to move...why? It was like straight out saying I don't care if you'll be somewhere else like Brian's house, you shouldn't even be there. You know what back off. Everyone.
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