I'm so upset I almost want to cry, but I won't I'll hold it in. Brian's real bad, the infection spread to his "uvula" and swelled up. He has trouble breathing and talking. He can't even eat and he has to stick to liquids. With all the medicine he's taking it's making him weak. He said he couldn't even get out of bed. I wish I could do something to help him. I feel so horrible. For the first time in a long time I feel kinda helpless, ya know? Like there's nothing I can do and all I can do is wait and watch and see if things get better. Which in my mind, doesn't seem too pleasant. If he gets worse they'll rush him to ER and if the swelling is too much they'll cut his throat open so he can breathe. God that sounds so awful, I hope that doesn't happen. This'll be the second time I talk to with God because something has to be done. So if you hear me, please make him better! I can't stand knowing he's sick and I can't do anything for him. God I hate feeling helpless...I almost feel weak. I wish he gets better, and as for me I'm going to the doctors and getting swabbed most likely I have it and I'll get antibiotics and then I can see him cuz it won't affect me. Some f*cking break this'll be.
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