Okay so I wanted to face this issue I was talking about before. The 7th Heaven episode was about losing someone. Well I've been in a car accident and it's not fun. Nothing really serious happened. I broke my middle finger and had to get surgery but that's nothing big. The only part is I'm being sued by one of the kids that was in my car, fucking prick I hope he goes to hell. God forgive me. He deserves it though, him and his whole family. Anyway I bind him from ever hurting me or causing harm to me in any way. So back to my subject, losing people. Last year I lost my great grandmother on my graduation day. Yeah, talk about devastating right? Guess what the best part is that I didn't even know until the day afterwards, no one wanted to tell me and ruin things for me. Well guess what it was pretty much almost ruined on it's own because hardly anyone showed up. Yeah, everyone was so upset over the death that they couldn't go to my graduation and that really hurt. I never really talked about this to anyone but that's what I wanted for everyone to be there and that was taken away from me along with my great grandma. I could barely enjoy after the fact, my whole graduation. We didn't have a party for me or anything, but we had to do all this stuff for the funeral. In the end everyone begged me to sing at my grandmother's wake, which to tell you the truth was really hard. People were crying everywhere and I wanted to cry as well. They made me sing that song by Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men. I mean I had my cousins to help me sing back up but I pretty much carried the whole thing. I mean I sang my heart out and everything and Francince couldn't sing for long because she broke down in tears. I can never hear that song the same way again. It's not fair how you lose someone and by losing them it changes or even ruins things. I don't blame my great grandma or anything but I just wish it didn't happen on the same day. Maybe I'm just being selfish but it should have been my day and not what it was. You know her husband died when I was born, now that is just freaky. Will people always die when something with me happens? Junior year I starred in a school play and my uncle Mike and uncle Benny both died in the same year. Not fair, I just have like the curse of death. To be serious it's just not right how death is...it shouldn't be.
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